i was in bed, lights off, night lights on and the time on my iphone reflected 20:48
we were walking away from the business school, down the path passing the library and the street lamps were on. It must have been into the evening. you and I, we, were talking happily about nothing that would make sense, pretty much being our usual self. until,
"hey, what do you want huh" i asked, "nothing, what do YOU want?" was your reply.
i dont know what happened but the next thing i know was i said something along this line "nothing, NOTHING. i dont want anything, i'm gonna sit down" and i sat, right infront of the fruit stall which business was over for the day.
" why like that sam ?", "dont know. i dont care" was my only reply, " i dont want to care anymore " i added.
you squat down, facing me and that was when i saw your face, worried and not smiling and continuing my tantrum "why? what? you dont like me." "i do sam, i like you but...", " i dont care anymore" i rebutted and then you said " but you have seven thousand and eight annoying points ",
i almost broke out into laughter upon hearing those words but instead i kept my composure, looked at you in the face and said " and so ?!" that was when you smiled......
and i woke up. it was a dream of you.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
April 2011
its now 02:37, UK time. time really flies and we're now nearly into the last of the 2nd quarter of the year.
anyhow, since i dont blog on a regular basis i thought the least i can do is to do a monthly recap of whatever happenings or the lack of it. due to exams, may is a tragic month.
so april 2011, its the time where school's out and people make merry, no school, sun's out, easter vacations... nearly perfect.
so on the very first day of april, i set out to stavanger, norway with the rookery road fellas (Mel, Joyce, Kaung & Bjornar ). Stavanger is really a beautiful place, lovely pace of life (well, some might beg to be differ but personally, i liked it), whatever pace you'd call it... it was a far cry from singapore's busy, rapid pace. houses which seems to come right out of a ikea catalogue, you know those wooden houses with huge windows emitting orange cosy lights. we spent the first day just taking a walk around this hill(?) near Bjornar's place, weather was wet and wind was strong... but still we managed to get silly and ended up with only laughable moments.
so, we took a couple of hours drive up to the ski cabin where we lay/tumbled/ran barefooted/fell and got bruised/laughed/cursed/ate/sat in snow, we probably did some other random stuffs which i suddenly couldnt remb.
we built a snowman....
which inspired us to build an army..
had home cooked norwegian food which couldnt be more wonderful. even got to draw on a norwegian egg (LOL)
had a go at a norwegian toaster (i'm probably making this up) but heyyyy, it was different and interesting !
thats brown cheese by the way, yummms :D
spent a quality of almost a week in Stavanger, i gotta say its been one of the loveliest places i've ever been to. i liked the way everything was and i'm sure having someone bringing me(us) around was the highlight of the trip. glad to be going back again in august, this time round for some serious adventure ! :D yippee.
afew days after stavanger was lake district !
this time round, being leaders, we actually got more responsibilities AND also more chances to do a walkabout the village. the activities, mountain climbing... would become one of life's most talked about moments.
these trips made up 1/2 of april's. i think i kinda overspent in april and oh yes, celebrated Joyce's 22nd birthdaY!! not much pictures of me due to the drug allergy... but it was in my opinion, a simple and lovely night. everyone was happy and enjoying themselves... just the way life was supposed to be. :)
x
anyhow, since i dont blog on a regular basis i thought the least i can do is to do a monthly recap of whatever happenings or the lack of it. due to exams, may is a tragic month.
so april 2011, its the time where school's out and people make merry, no school, sun's out, easter vacations... nearly perfect.
so on the very first day of april, i set out to stavanger, norway with the rookery road fellas (Mel, Joyce, Kaung & Bjornar ). Stavanger is really a beautiful place, lovely pace of life (well, some might beg to be differ but personally, i liked it), whatever pace you'd call it... it was a far cry from singapore's busy, rapid pace. houses which seems to come right out of a ikea catalogue, you know those wooden houses with huge windows emitting orange cosy lights. we spent the first day just taking a walk around this hill(?) near Bjornar's place, weather was wet and wind was strong... but still we managed to get silly and ended up with only laughable moments.
so, we took a couple of hours drive up to the ski cabin where we lay/tumbled/ran barefooted/fell and got bruised/laughed/cursed/ate/sat in snow, we probably did some other random stuffs which i suddenly couldnt remb.
we built a snowman....
which inspired us to build an army..
had home cooked norwegian food which couldnt be more wonderful. even got to draw on a norwegian egg (LOL)
had a go at a norwegian toaster (i'm probably making this up) but heyyyy, it was different and interesting !
thats brown cheese by the way, yummms :D
spent a quality of almost a week in Stavanger, i gotta say its been one of the loveliest places i've ever been to. i liked the way everything was and i'm sure having someone bringing me(us) around was the highlight of the trip. glad to be going back again in august, this time round for some serious adventure ! :D yippee.
afew days after stavanger was lake district !
this time round, being leaders, we actually got more responsibilities AND also more chances to do a walkabout the village. the activities, mountain climbing... would become one of life's most talked about moments.
these trips made up 1/2 of april's. i think i kinda overspent in april and oh yes, celebrated Joyce's 22nd birthdaY!! not much pictures of me due to the drug allergy... but it was in my opinion, a simple and lovely night. everyone was happy and enjoying themselves... just the way life was supposed to be. :)
x
Saturday, April 30, 2011
this week has been physically dramatic. well you see, i've been getting this on-off bouts of pain from the area around my right wisdom tooth. its annoying, painful and sometimes just makes me feel like not doing anything. i know i should probably visit the dentist but having an xray done before, i do know that my wisdom tooth are (thank god) straight and therefore rightfully, needs no extraction BUT having said that, i think the gum/flap of gum surrounding that smart tooth is very prone to infection... so i'm working towards keeping it clean now.
anyhow, the tooth pain is not that interesting but like any good plot... it often catches on surprisingly. so, in order to alleviate the toothache, i took ibuprofen and... things started getting um.... different.
20 mins of taking ibuprofen, i was happily lazing on the bed and playing this new game which i downloaded (and paid for!!) on my iphone, its soooo addictive that i didn't want to shower but i did anyway... after 15 more minutes. 5 mins after i'm out of the showers, i looked into the mirror and saw this
its nothing alarming, just small bumps around my eyes. at this point, my eyes were starting to itch a little, nothing unbearable and i just went about doing my usual stuffs but less than 5 mins later, i was back looking into the mirror and this was me
it was starting to swell and honestly, i thought that was going to be it. i had to start a new course of antibiotics few months back and when i first took it, i developed small bumps around my eyes as well but nothing more... so i thought maybe, new drugs... takes time for the body to recognise it and, i couldnt me more wrong.
this was me after what seems like less than 10 mins
and this was me at my worst,
and when i saw this, i started getting worried but i know it would go away but it was just so uncomfortable and liquid kept flowing out, the swell was so bad that i couldnt even see clearly, i tried my best to not close my eyes (cus i was scared) and didnt want the liquid retention to get worst but honestly i dont see how much worsen it could had swelled. but thankfully and seriously, thankfully, timo came back and covered my eyes in warm cloth. i think that was the saving point for me... i mean, at least i felt heaps better and even fell asleep and when i woke up, the swelling seems to have went down a little... but anyhow, this was me the next afternoon
better but.... still, bad. so i remb the warm cloth thingy and kept doing that bcus it was joyce's bday and... i had to go out ! so after doing this
constantly for what seems like 2 hours ? i went out looking like this
and a few hours later, i was this,
so everything was looking better but.... till about 3am, i started seeing everything brighter again.. could be my eyes needed the break/rest. it was so hard to even tear ( i think they were too dry) but i had to.... it was quite scary but i didnt know how to express it. i didnt want anybody to worry, i even contemplated going to the hospital but i'm glad that tim was around and kinda helped me through it all. i have this hidden fear about visiting hospitals/doctors... but this is another post for another day.
so anyhow, for updates purpose, my eyes are WAY BETTER now ! almost normal i would say but... the skin around them are especially dry and.... slight itch every now and then.
so, we (tim & i) googled the condition amidst the swelling process and we found out that its called Non-Steroidal Anti-Inflammatory Drugs (abbreviated NSAID) include a large number of medications that are closely related to aspirin. Aspirin was the first NSAID discovered in the 1800’s, isolated from the bark of the willow tree. NSAID allergy is estimated to be present in approximately 1% of the general population.
and if its not obvious enough, i'm allergic to aspirins and ibuprofen contains aspirins. but on the bright side, while it was running through my body..... my toothache was non-exsistant and i think drinking A LOT of water probably helps to bring down the swelling faster cause i drank what seems like enough to um..... ( i cant think of anything that wont unintentionally be misinterpreted to something discriminating)
and in case you forgot how i normally look like,
and yes, that guy eating my arm off is that man with warm cloth. the cloth that provided all relief that i needed.
p/s: i still look slightly off now... i think it could be the cheeks.. but its nothing major anymore ! :D happy weekends everybody.
anyhow, the tooth pain is not that interesting but like any good plot... it often catches on surprisingly. so, in order to alleviate the toothache, i took ibuprofen and... things started getting um.... different.
20 mins of taking ibuprofen, i was happily lazing on the bed and playing this new game which i downloaded (and paid for!!) on my iphone, its soooo addictive that i didn't want to shower but i did anyway... after 15 more minutes. 5 mins after i'm out of the showers, i looked into the mirror and saw this
its nothing alarming, just small bumps around my eyes. at this point, my eyes were starting to itch a little, nothing unbearable and i just went about doing my usual stuffs but less than 5 mins later, i was back looking into the mirror and this was me
it was starting to swell and honestly, i thought that was going to be it. i had to start a new course of antibiotics few months back and when i first took it, i developed small bumps around my eyes as well but nothing more... so i thought maybe, new drugs... takes time for the body to recognise it and, i couldnt me more wrong.
this was me after what seems like less than 10 mins
and this was me at my worst,
and when i saw this, i started getting worried but i know it would go away but it was just so uncomfortable and liquid kept flowing out, the swell was so bad that i couldnt even see clearly, i tried my best to not close my eyes (cus i was scared) and didnt want the liquid retention to get worst but honestly i dont see how much worsen it could had swelled. but thankfully and seriously, thankfully, timo came back and covered my eyes in warm cloth. i think that was the saving point for me... i mean, at least i felt heaps better and even fell asleep and when i woke up, the swelling seems to have went down a little... but anyhow, this was me the next afternoon
better but.... still, bad. so i remb the warm cloth thingy and kept doing that bcus it was joyce's bday and... i had to go out ! so after doing this
constantly for what seems like 2 hours ? i went out looking like this
and a few hours later, i was this,
so everything was looking better but.... till about 3am, i started seeing everything brighter again.. could be my eyes needed the break/rest. it was so hard to even tear ( i think they were too dry) but i had to.... it was quite scary but i didnt know how to express it. i didnt want anybody to worry, i even contemplated going to the hospital but i'm glad that tim was around and kinda helped me through it all. i have this hidden fear about visiting hospitals/doctors... but this is another post for another day.
so anyhow, for updates purpose, my eyes are WAY BETTER now ! almost normal i would say but... the skin around them are especially dry and.... slight itch every now and then.
so, we (tim & i) googled the condition amidst the swelling process and we found out that its called Non-Steroidal Anti-Inflammatory Drugs (abbreviated NSAID) include a large number of medications that are closely related to aspirin. Aspirin was the first NSAID discovered in the 1800’s, isolated from the bark of the willow tree. NSAID allergy is estimated to be present in approximately 1% of the general population.
and if its not obvious enough, i'm allergic to aspirins and ibuprofen contains aspirins. but on the bright side, while it was running through my body..... my toothache was non-exsistant and i think drinking A LOT of water probably helps to bring down the swelling faster cause i drank what seems like enough to um..... ( i cant think of anything that wont unintentionally be misinterpreted to something discriminating)
and in case you forgot how i normally look like,
and yes, that guy eating my arm off is that man with warm cloth. the cloth that provided all relief that i needed.
p/s: i still look slightly off now... i think it could be the cheeks.. but its nothing major anymore ! :D happy weekends everybody.
Friday, April 29, 2011
i want to help you figure this out when it all seems too impossible to decipher.
I want to believe you're a good person even when you dont think so yourself.
I want to show you that you're worth it when no one else will even try.
I want to hold your hand when you're lonely & tell you that everything will be okay - not just to make you feel better,
but because i really believe it will be.
and i will stay until it is.... % even after that.
I want to believe you're a good person even when you dont think so yourself.
I want to show you that you're worth it when no one else will even try.
I want to hold your hand when you're lonely & tell you that everything will be okay - not just to make you feel better,
but because i really believe it will be.
and i will stay until it is.... % even after that.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
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