02:12

2011-05-25T18:10:00.001-07:00

i was in bed, lights off, night lights on and the time on my iphone reflected 20:48

we were walking away from the business school, down the path passing the library and the street lamps were on. It must have been into the evening. you and I, we, were talking happily about nothing that would make sense, pretty much being our usual self. until,

"hey, what do you want huh" i asked, "nothing, what do YOU want?" was your reply.

i dont know what happened but the next thing i know was i said something along this line "nothing, NOTHING. i dont want anything, i'm gonna sit down" and i sat, right infront of the fruit stall which business was over for the day.

" why like that sam ?", "dont know. i dont care" was my only reply, " i dont want to care anymore " i added.

you squat down, facing me and that was when i saw your face, worried and not smiling and continuing my tantrum "why? what? you dont like me." "i do sam, i like you but...", " i dont care anymore" i rebutted and then you said " but you have seven thousand and eight annoying points ",

i almost broke out into laughter upon hearing those words but instead i kept my composure, looked at you in the face and said " and so ?!" that was when you smiled......

and i woke up. it was a dream of you.

April 2011

2011-05-14T18:37:00.000-07:00

its now 02:37, UK time. time really flies and we're now nearly into the last of the 2nd quarter of the year.

anyhow, since i dont blog on a regular basis i thought the least i can do is to do a monthly recap of whatever happenings or the lack of it. due to exams, may is a tragic month.

so april 2011, its the time where school's out and people make merry, no school, sun's out, easter vacations... nearly perfect.

so on the very first day of april, i set out to stavanger, norway with the rookery road fellas (Mel, Joyce, Kaung & Bjornar ). Stavanger is really a beautiful place, lovely pace of life (well, some might beg to be differ but personally, i liked it), whatever pace you'd call it... it was a far cry from singapore's busy, rapid pace. houses which seems to come right out of a ikea catalogue, you know those wooden houses with huge windows emitting orange cosy lights. we spent the first day just taking a walk around this hill(?) near Bjornar's place, weather was wet and wind was strong... but still we managed to get silly and ended up with only laughable moments.

so, we took a couple of hours drive up to the ski cabin where we lay/tumbled/ran barefooted/fell and got bruised/laughed/cursed/ate/sat in snow, we probably did some other random stuffs which i suddenly couldnt remb.

we built a snowman....

which inspired us to build an army..

had home cooked norwegian food which couldnt be more wonderful. even got to draw on a norwegian egg (LOL)

had a go at a norwegian toaster (i'm probably making this up) but heyyyy, it was different and interesting !

thats brown cheese by the way, yummms :D

spent a quality of almost a week in Stavanger, i gotta say its been one of the loveliest places i've ever been to. i liked the way everything was and i'm sure having someone bringing me(us) around was the highlight of the trip. glad to be going back again in august, this time round for some serious adventure ! :D yippee.

afew days after stavanger was lake district !

this time round, being leaders, we actually got more responsibilities AND also more chances to do a walkabout the village. the activities, mountain climbing... would become one of life's most talked about moments.

these trips made up 1/2 of april's. i think i kinda overspent in april and oh yes, celebrated Joyce's 22nd birthdaY!! not much pictures of me due to the drug allergy... but it was in my opinion, a simple and lovely night. everyone was happy and enjoying themselves... just the way life was supposed to be. :)

x

2011-04-30T14:34:00.000-07:00

2011-04-30T10:06:00.000-07:00

this week has been physically dramatic. well you see, i've been getting this on-off bouts of pain from the area around my right wisdom tooth. its annoying, painful and sometimes just makes me feel like not doing anything. i know i should probably visit the dentist but having an xray done before, i do know that my wisdom tooth are (thank god) straight and therefore rightfully, needs no extraction BUT having said that, i think the gum/flap of gum surrounding that smart tooth is very prone to infection... so i'm working towards keeping it clean now.

anyhow, the tooth pain is not that interesting but like any good plot... it often catches on surprisingly. so, in order to alleviate the toothache, i took ibuprofen and... things started getting um.... different.

20 mins of taking ibuprofen, i was happily lazing on the bed and playing this new game which i downloaded (and paid for!!) on my iphone, its soooo addictive that i didn't want to shower but i did anyway... after 15 more minutes. 5 mins after i'm out of the showers, i looked into the mirror and saw this

its nothing alarming, just small bumps around my eyes. at this point, my eyes were starting to itch a little, nothing unbearable and i just went about doing my usual stuffs but less than 5 mins later, i was back looking into the mirror and this was me

it was starting to swell and honestly, i thought that was going to be it. i had to start a new course of antibiotics few months back and when i first took it, i developed small bumps around my eyes as well but nothing more... so i thought maybe, new drugs... takes time for the body to recognise it and, i couldnt me more wrong.

this was me after what seems like less than 10 mins

and this was me at my worst,

and when i saw this, i started getting worried but i know it would go away but it was just so uncomfortable and liquid kept flowing out, the swell was so bad that i couldnt even see clearly, i tried my best to not close my eyes (cus i was scared) and didnt want the liquid retention to get worst but honestly i dont see how much worsen it could had swelled. but thankfully and seriously, thankfully, timo came back and covered my eyes in warm cloth. i think that was the saving point for me... i mean, at least i felt heaps better and even fell asleep and when i woke up, the swelling seems to have went down a little... but anyhow, this was me the next afternoon

better but.... still, bad. so i remb the warm cloth thingy and kept doing that bcus it was joyce's bday and... i had to go out ! so after doing this

constantly for what seems like 2 hours ? i went out looking like this

and a few hours later, i was this,

so everything was looking better but.... till about 3am, i started seeing everything brighter again.. could be my eyes needed the break/rest. it was so hard to even tear ( i think they were too dry) but i had to.... it was quite scary but i didnt know how to express it. i didnt want anybody to worry, i even contemplated going to the hospital but i'm glad that tim was around and kinda helped me through it all. i have this hidden fear about visiting hospitals/doctors... but this is another post for another day.

so anyhow, for updates purpose, my eyes are WAY BETTER now ! almost normal i would say but... the skin around them are especially dry and.... slight itch every now and then.

so, we (tim & i) googled the condition amidst the swelling process and we found out that its called Non-Steroidal Anti-Inflammatory Drugs (abbreviated NSAID) include a large number of medications that are closely related to aspirin. Aspirin was the first NSAID discovered in the 1800’s, isolated from the bark of the willow tree. NSAID allergy is estimated to be present in approximately 1% of the general population.

and if its not obvious enough, i'm allergic to aspirins and ibuprofen contains aspirins. but on the bright side, while it was running through my body..... my toothache was non-exsistant and i think drinking A LOT of water probably helps to bring down the swelling faster cause i drank what seems like enough to um..... ( i cant think of anything that wont unintentionally be misinterpreted to something discriminating)

and in case you forgot how i normally look like,

and yes, that guy eating my arm off is that man with warm cloth. the cloth that provided all relief that i needed.

p/s: i still look slightly off now... i think it could be the cheeks.. but its nothing major anymore ! :D happy weekends everybody.

2011-04-29T14:23:00.000-07:00

i want to help you figure this out when it all seems too impossible to decipher.
I want to believe you're a good person even when you dont think so yourself.
I want to show you that you're worth it when no one else will even try.
I want to hold your hand when you're lonely & tell you that everything will be okay - not just to make you feel better,
but because i really believe it will be.
and i will stay until it is.... % even after that.

2011-04-24T10:30:00.001-07:00

just bcus i dont cry infront of anyone anymore.... doesnt mean i've managed to stop crying.

watch my face as i pretend to show no pain.

2011-04-22T17:51:00.001-07:00

see, having expectations fucked you up.

5 more mins of this and i'm gonna block everything out so i can do 1-2 hours of quality studying.

2011-04-20T16:55:00.000-07:00

this is bad, not devastating kinda of bad but its one of those therearetoomuchthoughtsinmyhead kinda bad.
i dont know where to start and i have a feeling this whole post will end up being a rant of some sort but no, its not a rant... i'm not angry or frustrated. i have no reasons/nothing to rant about.

lets start it simple, march came and gone... if anything, it was quite a mellow month and not forgetting all the submissions. anyhow, april is coming to an end but it started off great. went to stavanger, norway, and ski for the first time in my life! will do a proper picture/comments thingy on stavanger soon.. maybe this weekend. after norway, was a couple of days break and it was off to the lake district !

climbed the old man of coniston for the 2nd time in life... and it does seem relatively easier this time round and we got to explore more of the village. its a nice place those that makes life seems a whole lot simpler.

well, it is simple isnt it ? it should be and meant to be simple... i dont like to admit this but i've been feeling anything but simple. its complications one after another or maybe i should change my perspective. the walls that i've built through all those tears, determination, pretence and a whole lot of strength... well, they're not quite as easily broken down as i would like them to be. its fear i think but i didnt know i could be so fearful. still, i believe... believe in the good thats left afterall being stabbed once(++), what else is there left to be scared of right ?

you see the contradiction ? its not easy to explain. so when i say everything is alright, believe me, it is. everything is and will be. if its not alright, i would become increasingly vague and somehow... things always turn out somehow better after that.

but right now, i feel walls... again. its cold, walls are cold. i think its my defence mechanism. its like how you fall down too many times trying to roller blade and then you looked at all of e scars, got reminded and started putting on protection gear. you'll still roller blade but you'll do it safer in hoping there won't be anymore scars.

" & dont bide our time, its always too late. let's both fall asleep now a dream doesnt wait"

2011-04-09T13:29:00.001-07:00

the question isnt who is going to let me. its who is going to stop me

2011-03-29T13:46:00.000-07:00

feels like something is missing. arghhhh.

HIT ME

2011-03-22T17:25:00.001-07:00

2011-03-20T20:28:00.000-07:00

i like birthdays, well.. generally.
birthdays are always fun and laughter filled. everyone is happy.
i hope 23 started with a big bang and will end louder than ever for you!
keep smiling tim!
you were asking us to say a wish for you and i'm sorry i couldnt do a proper one except saying "be happy"

anyhow, happy birthday and here's something to remb your 23 by!

and my wish for you,

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

:D

xx.
sstng

2011-03-11T13:21:00.000-08:00

then what else matters? you’re not going to be perfect together, but who is? if he can make you laugh, make you think twice, and take chances, then hold on to him, and give him the best of you that you possibly can. sure, he won’t be thinking about you every second, won’t be with you all the time, and you won’t always know what he’s doing, but he’s giving you a part of him that he knows you can break. so don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give and try not to over analyze. smile whenever he makes you happy, and yell when he makes you mad and of course, miss him when he’s gone.

:)

2011-02-25T11:25:00.000-08:00

2011-02-22T12:23:00.000-08:00

After a while you learn the subtle
difference between holding a hand and
chaining a soul, And you learn that
love doesnt mean leaning and company
doesnt mean security, And you begin to
learn that kisses arent contracts and
presents arent promises, And you
begin to accept your defeats with your
head up and your eyes open, with the
grace of an adult, not the grief of a
child And you learn to build all your
roads on today because tomorrows ground
is too uncertain for plans. After a while
you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So plant your garden and decorate your
own soul, instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.

march is going to be tough. stay with me, wont i ?

2011-02-08T18:05:00.001-08:00

i feel like i need to blog... soon.
after this whole dissertation thing.

ask no qns, for the answers dont matter.

2011-01-27T07:54:00.001-08:00

i want to like somebody..
without complications
not liking a simple person
but like.. without having the need to be liked back
i want to
but that doesnt mean i can

can i ?

2011-01-22T11:10:00.001-08:00

“See we’re more than friends but less than together .
I know we both agreed that’s how it should be,
But I didn’t think we’d be like this forever.
And I don’t wanna make you more than you make me,
no I can’t.
...But at the end of the day,
baby I’m still a girl.”

2011-01-16T07:38:00.001-08:00

2011-01-16T04:40:00.000-08:00

somebody, anyone, tell me its gonna be different
tell me its gonna be better.
tell me history isnt going to repeat itself.
tell me everything gna be alright.
tell me that was then and this is now.
tell me....

tell me that i can trust you.

wont you ? please...

2011-01-14T03:27:00.000-08:00

# Your 'Numerology' number is 1. If it wasn't bulls**t, it would mean that you are ambitious, independent, and self-sufficient. Although you are generally happy, loving, dynamic and charismatic, you can sometimes be egotistical, selfish and melodramatic.

# According to the US Census Bureau°, 0.124% of US residents have the first name 'Samantha' and fewer than 0.001% have the surname 'Tng'. The US has around 300 million residents, so we guesstimate there is only 1 American who goes by the name Samantha Tng.

melodramatic. nice.

my surname is rare, super duper rare. hi fellow tng(s)

2010-12-31T09:54:00.000-08:00

21 things we did in 2010.

1. opened 2010 at henderson wave

2. celebrated cny 2010 / cny steamboat

3. phuture-d and norman puked infront of e dj console after graveyard. epic

4. 1st overseas trip: bangkok!

5. 1st clubbing overseas: RCA - Route 66, BKK

6. partied with andy buck, ben and norman got wasted

7. Celebrated ben's 21st @ screening room

8. Midnight BBQ at Seletar Dam

9. Picnic at marina barage: touristy

10. Sam's farewell party @ Marina Bay Sands

11. Sam's 21st : with love from Singapore

12. Triple video-conference

13. ZoukOut 2010

14. Norman's early bday dinner @ Ying Yang Bar

15. Road trip: Thailand !

16. Norman's bday surprise at Kanchanaburi

17. Xmas countdown: RCA - Route 66, BKK

18. Chatutchak till broke

19. First ever shisha tgt

20. Made international friends

21. Welcoming of 2011 !!!

thank you for making 2010 easier ! to 2011 and infinity ! x x

2010-12-09T23:42:00.000-08:00

reminder to self:

chill sam. not so readily again. definitely maybe but not so soon, not so fast.

definitely maybe. :)

2010-11-15T16:18:00.000-08:00

bcus when e sun shines, we'll shine together. told you i'll always be your friend, gonna stick it out till e end.
you can stand under my umbrella.

USS this time round or marinabay sands II ? lol.

dec. awesome. :)

2010-11-14T17:29:00.000-08:00

keep it up sam. -_____________________________-

pub crawl end of nov ! awesomesauce

2010-11-09T15:46:00.001-08:00

hi ron,

dont disturb.

2010-10-21T17:47:00.000-07:00

Her life was beginning to make sense again, although she couldn’t say she was enjoying it. But her mind was clear, and her heart was not constantly as heavy. Only when she thought about him. But she knew that in time, she’d survive it. She had done it before and would again. Eventually the heart repairs.

2010-10-13T16:47:00.000-07:00

What are we, after all, without our memories … without our dreams?

anw, i'm finally 21 ! and i feel like i have the best housemates ever.
thank you girls :)

lotsa love.

2010-10-02T16:02:00.000-07:00

i've kinda been in a pretty messed up emotions state lately.
its the usual same old story about.. too much feeling for the
wrong/undeserving guy. but i dont think i regretted it. its all part of life, my life.

i would be pretty naive if i were to say i didnt expect this coming. although expected, i just never thought it would be this tough. you know.. assuming and actual realisation are so different? but i know.. it can only get easier.

i've always believe.. things happen for a reason. whatever reason it might be, i'm clueless. but i wish you well, you know i do. i'm always making it easier for whoever except myself. thats how hopeless i can be.

but in this mess ~~we're~~ i'm in, there can only be one path. any other way(s) will just be me messing up my own head. what you said it's true, how people usually emo in their blog.. esp true for me bcus its easier this way i guess. sometimes, you just dont wna voice it out bcus you're scare whoever is listening will be sick and tired of hearing the same things over and over again. so its best to just replay it over and over again in my own head and den blog it out.

i was going through my archives and noticed how sometimes i blogged to signfy the end of something. letting it out = out of mind. maybe.

i figured.. i dont wna enter my 21st like that. what happened when i was 20 will end once i'm 21. few more days to go && i'm letting us go.

its not that our love died, it just never had a chance to bloosm and you cant lose what you never had.

with all that said, i wish you well & myself, better.

21st will be an awesome year for you sam. you know it will be :)

2010-08-24T12:27:00.001-07:00

hello hello baby
you called,

I....

2010-07-21T12:51:00.001-07:00

wish you were my bag.

holland vs. spain!

2010-07-11T11:00:00.000-07:00

its 2am now, 30 more mins to go! was supposed to be watching with e guys.. but, eventually all of us are too lazy to get out of the house. so anw, bangkok!
it was a total of 4D3N, a crazy 4D3N.

before the trip, we've decided themes for each different day. and so yeh, hopefully its obvious enough but anyhow.. the guys got to the hotel first. i was in hatyai and had to take a domestic flight up to bangkok. got there about 1pm ? cant remb.. but i knew they were famished when i arrived and when i entered the hotel room, we screamed as though we've not seen each other for months. lol.

our very first shot tgt!

while on the lift down to food and SHOPPING! i hated this lift part. our room was on the 62th floor and the lobby was on the 18th floor or sth. so we had to take e lift down from 62th to the lobby.. and change another lift from the lobby to the ground floor. multiply that by the number of trips we make going in and out.. pretty much annoying!

this is a very happy norman with his drink, iced thai black tea. awesomeness. my fav drink in thailand. :D

this is us goofing around while waitin for food.

and after food, we WALKED to platinum shopping mall. damn proud of myself. cus i actually knew the way there.. well, with some help from the thais of cus. useful to know thai.. in erm.. thailand! lol. brought snacks from the road side stalls along the way and thats a damn spicy stick of bbq squid norman is eating. we took turns trying it and after one bite, we all went.. damn spicy damn spicy and i ran into the first 7-11 i can see for water. LOL. so yeh.. thats him and e spicy thingy in a 7-11

ben and i outside the 7-11. nice shot.. no ? :D

e boys.

while shopping. think norman was choosing his stuffs.

sawadee ka. new hat :DDD

us on our first tuk tuk ride! were heading for SIAM. i love SIAM!! anw, we went to siam.. did our hair.. shopped ard alil and headed back to the hotel. norman stayed back in the hotel to GAME while ben and I continue with our shopping... till... 4am!

this is us at 4am. damn tired. and... this is only day 1. lol.
alright, will cont this is another post.

so anw, we got back to sg on 28th. and it was busy busy busy all e way from then. attended meetings on mom's behalf.

meeting on 1st july in the noon, picked andy and barbara from the airport at 3pm+, dinner with the girls and andy and barbs at brewerkz. left andy at bout 10+pm. sent mel home, got home myself.. decided to go punggol end with the boys. and yeh.. basically, was playin host to andy along with joyce and mel!

but anyhow, i had to go to bangkok AGAIN.. so was there from 6th-9th. busy busy busy. didnt even had time to step into a shopping mall. UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT. i know.
got back to sg on the 9th, afternoon. was ben's 21st ( another blog entry ). got home at 5pm. met andy, joyce and mel (AJM) for dinner and i went off to ben's party after e dinner. after ben's 21st was ktv with AJM and the boys for bout 2 hours before the boys and I head for phuture to join some other friends.

BUSY RIGHT ? i know.

2010-07-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

samantha s. says:
bom bom pow
bentan says:
bbooommmm
samantha s. says:
i wna bbq too
before i go back bham
bentan says:
i doing songlist for my bday
samantha s. says:
you guys better dont tell me.. uni arld no time to meet
bentan says:
got any preferance?
samantha s. says:
at least one week once !
cus i gg off on 1st sept
den you can uni all you want
bentan says:
YOU WANNA BBW EVERY WEEK?
samantha s. says:
LOL. NO LAH
bentan says:
BBQ*
samantha s. says:
at least one week once !

samantha s. says:
MEETING UP
lol
you just made me LOL
bentan says:
ya la
scare me
i tot bbq every week
i think will get cancer
samantha s. says:
HAHAHAHA. I'M GNA BLOG THIS

2010-07-03T23:35:00.000-07:00

anw, am back in sg! been meeting ben and norman almost everynight.
will blog bout our first bkk trip tgt soon. mad tiring and fun.
nearly broke though.

andy's in sg! been playin host.
some school administrative shit going on. blah

turning kinda hopeless lately. lol.

-.- -. --- .-- / - .... .- - / .. / -- .. ... ... / -.-- --- ..- --..-- / -... .- -.. .-.-.- .-.-.- .-.. -.--

2010-06-17T09:15:00.001-07:00

norman - cant make up yr mind. has left the conversation.

samantha s. says:
if we train correctly.. one month shud be more den enough
AM I GNA DC ?????
REPLY REPLY REPLY
bentan says:
huh
lol
samantha s. says:
no
cus in e afternoon
everytime i see norman exit e convo
i will dc
LOL
so its like an omen
LOLOLOL
bentan says:
LOL!
samantha s. says:
serious lah
bentan says:
samantha s. says:
if we train correctly.. one month shud be more den enough
AM I GNA DC ?????
REPLY REPLY REPLY

damn bimbo
samantha s. says:
HAHAHA
you dont know how it feels like to be me now !
bentan says:
always dcdcdc
samantha s. says:
internet connection is a sensitive issue
shh.. one should always be grateful
bentan says:
i am
samantha s. says:
you pure singaporeans... damn spoilt ! LOL

and his reply.. wasnt very nice. LOLOLOL.
gna travel up north tml! not sure if we're gna hit phuket still or
goin directly to bkk. either way.. its a change!

can feel myself recovering though not entirely. it can only get better yes?

yes.

:)

2010-06-15T22:52:00.000-07:00

sawadee ka.
thailand has so far, been nice. lots of food.
still in hatyai and i'm restraining myself from shopping seeing that i'm gna be in bangkok in about 10 days.

the custom gave me 14days.zzz. now i'll have to go extend it. blah blah.
and i keep fallin sick, every 2-3 days. hope it will all clear up by phuket. which is tml! hehe.

mom has been feedin me with seafood, probably one of e reasons for falling sick.
but seafood is good!

have tons of plans for this few months but somehow i dont have good enough internet connection speed to materialise them. will have to wait till i get back to sg!

have tons of photos from bham and paris to edit. but... yawnnnnnnns. will get to it, eventually. and theres the 3k word essay. zz.

july gna be a fast month too. we'll come to that in another couple of posts.

ben and norman gna be in bangkok on the 25th! cant wait. first proper trip overseas with my friends. meaning, no mother or brother around. lol.

till den, keep smiling :)

xx

2010-06-11T09:34:00.001-07:00

1.7 - s3Xylexy .,'` feng .. tenchu .. shinobido ansatsu says:
which part of him u miss the most

samantha s. says:
his presence
lol

2010-06-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

can we pretend that airplanes in the night skies are shooting stars ?

last day here. in bham.
gna miss this place for awhile,
e girls, e guys, andy & esp you.

emotions aside.

singapore, are you ready ? :)

2010-06-03T10:48:00.001-07:00

your subtleties, they strangle me
i can't explain myself at all
and all the wants and all the needs
all i dont want to need at all

the walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
~~maybe its best you leave me alone~~
a weight is lifted on this evening
i give the final blow

when darkness turns to light
it ends tonight, it ends tonight.

2010-05-13T13:27:00.000-07:00

today's your bday. we spoke.
its not e same but still, we spoke.
you stayed home just so we could speak.
i miss us but i'm not gna go back for us.

all e best.
happy birthday :)

2010-05-12T12:56:00.000-07:00

2010-05-11T16:24:00.000-07:00

took them off anon's fb. seriously missing times like these, its not likely gna happen again though. but it was fun while it last. you guys made poly interesting and all fun. you guys made my poly days easy. for all e memories, cheers. :)

we take pictures of what we dont want to forget. <3

just so i have sth to remb you by.. :)

what chudoing boo
i miss u too
stick like a glue
out of the blue
thats how i woo

2010-05-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

its funny how i've become a r/s guru of sort lately.
every time you guys talk to me.. its always about matters of e heart.
not sian meh ?

instead of trying so hard to look for happiness,
why dont we all, my dear friends..
trying making ourselves happy ?

its not impossible. its easier den searching for ways and means for another person to make you happy.

happiness, as i've always believed, is a form of self-responsibility.

:)

anw, today has been a fulfilling day thus far. called my mom, my uncle, my dad. e talk with dad gotta be e most heart warming one. sorry i've neglected you dad. spoke to solo tng(my bro) online. hes one crazy dude.. but its all fine i guess. hahaha.

nice day. good day. :)

2010-05-05T14:13:00.000-07:00

lets talk about e phuket for now, shall we ?
that trip was e first time seeing my brother in almost 2 years. so many things have changed but i guess hes still who he has always been.

one of the first few pictures i took in phuket, was in my brother's car.

we went for steamboat at about 10.30 am, the restaurant staffs thought we were crazy. nobody eats steamboat for breakfast. e first few seconds felt weird, its been awhile since we sat down for a meal at e same table.

i think we probably ordered too much food. overkill. lol

checked in.. den off to shopping and more food !

i seriously miss auntie's anne now. not much of the singapore one.. but the thailand ones ! i wna eattttt....

so anw, the trip was kinda fun with lots of seafood, cheap manicure but i think e sun could afford to chill a little. it was 38 deg! omg.

say hi to Lebon Tng.

anw, getting kinda lazy arld. gna end e post with an obligatory of the sand, sea and sun of phuket. and yes, this was e nearest i got to the beach for this trip.

2010-05-05T12:23:00.001-07:00

hahahaha. mushrooms -.-
almost fell into a laughing fit.
irritant. lol.

2010-05-05T11:21:00.000-07:00

If I ever want to share, you'll have to get into my mind.
Because my lips are formed that as sighs.
Because I express much eloquently there.
The words that made my heart beat heavily in my chest,
words that conceals seemingly profound thoughts.
They are so many words, that they are none.
If you understand what I've been meaning to say.

And I hated the chain reaction of sharing.
Thats when I see what I don't like to see,
and hear what i don't want to hear.
I'd rather people not know and continue their lives
as if they have never been told.

I know I can’t sum it all up.
It’s a snowball effect.
It’s one thing on top of another.
It’s too much.
It’s too hard.

I am too _____________.

2010-05-03T16:18:00.000-07:00

am on a tumblr hunt. gotta figure out some stuffs by end week i guess. just need to be able to catch e right ppl who are living life 7 hours ahead of mine.

anw, meeting w/ e mayor tml. dont ask why. i dont know.

2010-04-30T10:07:00.001-07:00

i miss this 2. suffering from nnn withdrawal.

xoxo

2010-04-30T07:07:00.001-07:00

ha. not zai enough.

not cool sam. totally.

2010-04-27T16:49:00.000-07:00

so... here we go again ?

maybe. just...
maybe :)

2010-04-18T15:35:00.000-07:00

≠

go figure. april 17, 2010. sat.

over. reset. :)

another night to remb

2010-04-14T19:45:00.000-07:00

some people needs to learn how to mind their own business.

life is good in uk. kepplewray and paris next week! cant wait.
excited !!
snobs & perhaps GB on friday!
<3

2010-03-20T13:48:00.000-07:00

dont love if you're incapable of it.

dont even try.

2010-03-15T11:13:00.000-07:00

how long has it been since my last entry ? nt long enough, i think.

anw, i'm in birmingham, UK right now! in my heated room with e window slightly open. just so the air would circulate but that leaves me with freezing hands and feet. oh well, no win-win situation here.

birmingham is nice. charming, quiet place. but its pretty happening in Bullring! just that we seldom or rather try not to go there. one return train ride costs £2!

anw, i'm kinda gettin bored of this space and have a mind to shift it elsewhere.. den i'll have to do e whole designin thing again. TROUBLESOME.

on a sidenote, i was browsing through fb jumpin from mutual friends to mutual friends and i bump into one of my ex's current gf's blog. and all e things she said abt him, i cant recall at all! omg, talk about selective memory. maybe its cause we didnt last long. but i'm totally amazed at myself for bein able to forget bcus i think i kinda have an awesome memory! lol.

will post pics soon. ciaos!

2009-10-11T10:15:00.000-07:00

quite afew issues arised during e past few days.. some good, some bad.
glad that everyone who came enjoyed e dinner & most who came t st james had a blast.
thanks everyone who made my 20th happened! :)

clubbing was kinda crazy (i think so) seeing how norman & aaron puked but i could still go to work by 10am. how crazy was it ? i dont know man. will post up some pics as soon as ben sent them over.

you know how i usually blog only when i've stuffs on my mind ? right now i have 2, one has arld happened & stella's advice is "just dont let it bother you".. e other issue has a high possibility of happening and stella's & kaye's advice is "just go ahead with what you feel is right".. although they have been trying to make me reconsider.

for e cryptics, have a go:

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- .... . .-. . ... .- -. .. -- .--. --- .-. - .- -. - -.. .. ..-. ..-. . .-. . -. -.-. . -... . - .-- . . -. --. .. ...- .. -. --. ..- .--. .- -. -.. .-.. . - - .. -. --. --. ---

alright, gotta shower. ciaos

2009-10-06T10:53:00.000-07:00

uhhh, approx 40mins. i miss my CS3 !

2009-09-13T04:28:00.000-07:00

visited my old blog, and saw this

everyday is so wonderful
then suddenly,
it's hard to breathe
now and then, I get insecure

frm all e pain, I'm so ashamed

hmmm...

2009-08-16T16:06:00.000-07:00

she knew if she asked him to, he would be happy to do it. but if she had to ask, it wouldnt be the same.

2009-08-16T10:49:00.000-07:00

i've never been a person who like to force others.
i deal with my own thoughts, dont like explaining because.. sometimes.. somethings can get quite tiring.

you choose, you ask, you show.. i respect it.
its better this way.
it doesnt matter what i think, i'll deal with them personally.

2009-08-12T00:54:00.000-07:00

is it you, me or us ?

its a one way street.

2009-07-25T23:04:00.000-07:00

& we spoke... again.

2009-07-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

sam sam sam

2009-07-15T09:38:00.000-07:00

march 8 post.

its on repeat.

2009-07-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

its been more den 3 months and i've yet to do a post on school. school has been ____.
the transitions varies from one point to the other.

i remember crying very very hard on my last day of school in kindergarden, very very hard. i cried about leaving a group of people whose name i've lived to forget, lol. i felt lost on the first day of primary school but slowly grew up to enjoy it. graduating from primary school was weird, the feeling was just plain weird. i loved secondary school life right from the start despite our ridiculously far lone bus stop. secondary school was also where i've found some of the very best friends in my life. graduating from secondary school was a scary thought.. i knew i'll missed them but leaving wasnt a matter of choice. poly was fun fun and very fun. leaving poly seems surreal.. den before i knew it, i was in uni.

in this short period of time, i've experienced things which i never thought i would when i was signing up. i've become increasingly a very on-the-surface kind of person. i talk but i've become selective on the subjects i wished to share.

i value alot of things differently from what is typically percieved as to be. i choose to see life from my own point of view simply bcus its my life. dallas will understand me best when it comes to this and not the 28% quiz. HAHA.

its 12:20 am, lets call it a night.

nights.

2009-07-15T05:40:00.000-07:00

i dont regard everyone who i talked to as my friend.

friend (frěnd)
n.
A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

live and let live

2009-07-04T09:04:00.001-07:00

sometime back i recieved an email from a very dear friend of mine, dallas. i read but did not reply.. in fact, we didnt even spoke about it. I was walking to the station e other day and my thoughts drifted to e email and i felt grateful.

in primary school, i had lewis, xiu juan and gheeting. but i think i lost them all.

in secondary school, i had e xclunites and later on.. dallas. in poly, i made many more but namely.. anon, munis, kaye & wanqi. & for others who doesnt exactly fit into these categories.. i have royston, augy & ET.

these are the ppl (the ones that i havent lost) who i meet less den i would love to, due to many other factors.. studies, work, family, different clique and sometimes bf.

but still, you guys are always very understanding and forgiving and thats what i'm really grateful about.

even if i may not have e time to hang out with you guys.. do know that i'll always be around. i might forego meetings and catching up sessions but i still see you guys as some of the very dearest ppl in my life.

i love you guys
and
i love you dallas! :D
but yes, the 28% is very very terrible of you and i will meet up with you soon !

xoxo

2009-06-21T07:33:00.000-07:00

bcus at e end of e day you're still e one who cheer me up, not e trying ones.

for now, this is all that matters.

thanks love.

xoxo

2009-06-21T05:44:00.001-07:00

How in control are we of this in love feeling?

Love is like a fever and it comes and goes independently of the will. I think you can control your actions, but not your feelings. It’s a drive, like hunger. You never forget the one that got away, but the pain disappears, it does wear off.

2009-06-09T18:35:00.000-07:00

hi people (if any)

i know its a tad too late but i'm sure those few reading this blog will know, i'm never really much into this whole blogging thing.

so anyway, exams were fine.. except for the random mood swings. taught at hgss, cute bunch of students but i conclude that i dislike CSS. useful, yes... friendly, no.

moving on, i'm currently working part time at Heavens Loft, located on the 8th floor of orchard central. HAHA. i sound like a bloody promoter. *roll eyes* drop by if you can ya ? so far.. roy,augy and qx came over.

OH SHIT, I FORGOT TO CHARGE MY PSP AND ITS 9:38 AND I WNA PLAY IT ON THE TRAIN. BYE!

2009-06-01T00:42:00.000-07:00

its nice having friends who will stand by you no matter what happens.

xoxo

2009-05-28T12:53:00.000-07:00

"sweet dreams baby. love ya "

:D

take care in canada dear !

2009-05-21T04:47:00.000-07:00

will
blog
properly
after
exams
.

2009-05-03T06:26:00.000-07:00

daniel bought me these handmade mints from melbourne. thought they look like moth balls, they're nice but rock solid.

so anw, i'll blog soon about superstar summer.

my weekends were crazy, brace yourself.

met anon in the noon to get our grad gown, headed to swensens for lunch and walked around tamp1(fri). got back home ard 6pm(fri), left home at 9pm for summer at sentosa. 11pm(fri) - 4am(sat), cafe del mar, summer. slept at 5am(sat). woke up at 10.30am(sat). swam at 11am(sat). check out amara santuary resort at 12.15pm.(sat)

met wanqi at plaza sing at 1pm(sat), interview at dempsey, 2pm(sat). bukit timah hiking, 3.30pm -5pm(sat). town with wanqi, daniel, kaye.. 6pm - 9pm(sat). home to change. bbq,pingpong and mahjong at tiff's place, 10.30pm(sat) - 5.30am(sun).

oh god, typing out makes me wna go back to bed. and so, i woke up 5pm on sunday. washed my clothes, tidy my room and doing my project now. will post up pics of summer soon! :D

2009-04-26T03:19:00.001-07:00

Your Working Style
You are friendly, adaptable and a realist. You rely on what you see, hear, and know first-hand. You good-naturedly accept and use the facts around you. You look for a satisfying solution instead of trying to impose any "should" or "must" of your own. You are sure a satisfying solution will turn up once you have grasped all the facts.
You solve problems by being adaptable, and often can get other to adapt, too. People generally like you well enough to consider any compromise you suggest. You are unprejudiced open-minded, and tolerant of most everyone-- including yourself. You take things as they are and thus may be very good at easing a tense situation and pulling conflicting factions together.

You are actively curious about objects, scenery, activities, food, people, or anything new presented to your senses. Your expert abilities in using your senses may show in:

a continuous ability to see the need of the moment and turn easily to meet it
the ability to absorb, apply and remember great numbers of facts
an artistic taste and judgement
the handling of tools and materials
With your focus on the current situation and realistic acceptance of what exists, you can be gifted problem solvers. Because you are not necessarily bound by a need to follow standard procedures or preferred methods, you are often able to see ways of achieving a goal by "using" the existing rules, systems, or circumstances in new ways, rather than allowing them to be roadblocks.
You make your decisions by using the logical analysis of thinking rather than the more personal values of feeling. Your thinking enables you to crack down when the situation calls for toughness, and also helps you grasp underlying principles. You learn more effective in actual situations than on written tests. Abstract ideas and theories are not likely to be trusted by you until you have been tested in experience. You may have to work harder than other people to achieve in school, but can do so when you see the relevance.

You do best in careers needing realism, action, and adaptability. Examples are engineering, police work, credit investigation, marketing, health technologies, construction, production, recreation, food services, and many kinds of troubleshooting.

You are strong in the art of living. You get a lot of fun out of life, which makes you good company. You enjoy your material possessions and take the time to acquire you. You find much enjoyment in good food, clothes, music, and art. You enjoy physical exercise and sports, and usually are good at these.

How effective you are depends on how much judgment you acquire. You may need to develop your feeling so that they can use your values to provide standards for your behavior, and direction and purpose in your lives. If your judgment is not developed enough to give you any character or stick-to-it-iveness, you are in danger of adapting mainly to your own love of a good time.

2009-04-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

come what may.

2009-04-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

finally, i feel like i'm heading somewhere with the designs.
more to be done. well well.

caught knowing with gerald on wed and i met wanqi and kaye for dinner.
tamp1 was full of ppl, uniqlo queue was stupidity. *roll eyes*

i'm getting bored with all the routine stuffs.
wake up - eat - prep to go school - school - home/meet friends - home

i mean, you get e drift right ? hmmm.

2009-04-14T09:40:00.001-07:00

stellabella`... says:
i still rmb kaye eat the ginger soup
lol
สิริวอน says:
LOLOL
VERY FUNNY
HAHAHAHAHA

HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. GODLY !!

2009-04-13T08:43:00.000-07:00

guess what ? we're both right but right on different issue.

you're right that despite all, i've still yet to find the right words and i'm right that despite all, nothing matters, still.

i wasn't expecting for last night, i wasn't after an explaination. i just wanted to prove to myself that you're not entirely that fantastic and i think i might have succeed. you made the first move, i made the last. so, can i assume now that we're on different path ? you on A and maybe me on B, anything but A.

last night wasnt as hard as i thought it would be, it was in a way.. liberating. certain parts were still damn vague, but thats exactly how its gna be.. no ? because i have no definte answer(s), i shouldnt be asking for definte qns(s).. yes.

i'm not cold blooded, just selfish. i'm damn selfish, i love myself too much. it has to be you, never me. i wish you well, you know i do.

on a happier note, that is 3 of us somewhere on top of genting highlands! road trip! :D

cheers to a lesson free wednesday! but den again, there is the econs test on 22nd... blah.

2009-04-11T02:05:00.001-07:00

sucks seeing you on my fb again

2009-04-06T20:12:00.001-07:00

xoxo!

this was me taking a picture of stella with my iphone

this is the pic which i "tapped" while supporting stella up the hump and trying my best to not let her fall. lol

this is wanqi! :D

accounting and finance later !

2009-04-06T08:43:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgwNRE8QxaI

BEST!!! i've been playing it on repeat ever since i stumbled upon it last night. just got wanqi addicted to it too. love love love love ~

so.. YAY. survived first day of school. not too bad. think i actually like it. bus ride back is kinda blahhhhh though. timetable is kinda screwed, seeing how i've got classes on some saturday till 6pm or how it has affect my teaching schedules. opportunity costs no ? by choosing to go to my lessons, i forego the teaching.

:D

feels like insomnia ~

2009-04-05T00:34:00.000-07:00

heyo. i'm loving my newly designed blog skin.

kaye just got me addicted to the line " i want nobody nobody but you " ahh.

tml is the day and then its gna be the life. got my loot from jaylloyd last night. was out till about 1+am.

went ecp to roller blade with stella and wanqi on thursday. a couple of pics which i'll post as soon as i'm diligent enough to transfer them from sammiephone to sammiechine.

just told kaye that i'm gna go get stuffs for school later. blah.

i want nobody nobody but you....

2009-04-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

just caught shinjuku incident, it wasnt bad at all but there are some parts which i felt were kinda vague.. either that or our beloved MDA did some editing. blah. still, 3.5 popcorns! made me miss japan more.

so.. i've an addition one more class at greenridge sec. its damn far, for me.

met up with nicholas ystd, chit chat, ate.

the next phase of my life is gna begin come 6th April 2009. and oddly, i dont feel anything, not excited.. not anticipating.. nothing. well well.

2009-03-30T10:58:00.000-07:00

proj x won. first. $2k cash.

thanks to all who voted, who came down and who did both. hugs!

so, i've got accepted by both uni. buffalo and uni. birmingham. cool and not so cool. cool bcus, yes.. none of my application fees were wasted. not cool bcus if i accept uni. birmingham, i'm gna start soon.. damn soon. and yes lah, i am accepting their offer.

oh wells, back to being a student all over again. looks like plans to work has to take a back seat for now. so.. i'm still stuck with this full time student, part time worker and freelance designer thing. ahhh!

may it be fun

2009-03-19T19:56:00.000-07:00

as you grow older.. you'll ponder over stuffs that had took place. you'll analyse the what-ifs. what if i had told 19 ? what if i did this ? what if i did that ? you know, all the what ifs.

den you'll realise it doesnt really matter anymore now right ? as much as i want to say, it matters eventually i'll still just let it be. i'm not exactly an age that i want to go back and open up an old crush. i want to bury it, forever. i know i'm not that old either but because i hate troublesome stuffs, i know this is what i should do. maybe bcus, i moved on without a closure... but how to ask ?!

you were once that guy to me, 4 years later, you're STILL that guy to me. as much as i want to know some answers from you, i can only wish you well like how you wished me. :D

hahaha, pride ah sam. i know myself pretty well but i cant type to clarify myself, i cant be bothered.

as i looked back, i realised.. you never did caused me much heartaches. you were that nice reliable guy who was always there for me. all the stuffs you did, i remb them. for all these happy memories, thank you 19.

2009-03-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday, 18march, met up with weiyang.. watched chun li, not half as bad as expected. hahaha. weiyang updated me on several stuffs.. mainly his taste for girls. :x

saw leo, jianye and norman. 3 dudes in one day ! lol.

oh yes, project x got finalised ! more details to be annouced when everything is settled. 28 march 2009.

oh yes, i've started teaching robotics on a part time basis. tuesday was my first class at st hilda's. the students are kinda cute and they keep calling me cher despite me telling them i am NOT a teacher. hahaha. they actually asked me to play pet society with them, go lan gaming, go bowling and whats not -.- and they are ALL guys. pet society ?! ok..ay... lor. lol

hmm.. thats about it for the past few days. :D

2009-03-14T12:55:00.000-07:00

3:55AM now, just got home not long ago.

drove my sis's lamb out today, was with zh and went to pick norman and xs up. went to the airport, sent jaylloyd off. remb my stuffs, have fun and take care !

from airport, to town, to geylang, to kovan, to sk, to hg, home. hahaha. pretty much of the petrol and time was spent on roaming around. afew close shaves. hahaha. but yalah, ultimately better driver den that PSK Benjamin.

bf was sweet enough to acc me for fear of me being in an accident. hahaha. silly guy.
and he stood in the rain, okay lah, drizzle, to ensure that my parking is o-k-perfecto. xoxo!

drop bf home after yong he, and the 3 of us went to chill at kovan mac. xs talked about her stuffs, i talked about you, norman listened.

i told them about you in a pretty calm manner, i guess i can safely say i've sort my thoughts out. they told me what they think of everything, they might be true.. afterall a situation like ours has many possibilities. but it doesnt matter anymore now. it nvr did.

feels kinda thankful that things have to be this way, at least we've stopped circling but yet, feels kinda bruised that you have chosen this way out. whatever it is, the damage is done. you're out, bye.

4:06AM.

2009-03-11T21:21:00.001-07:00

technically, theres only ONE more day left for project X.

oneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneoneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneONEoneoneONE

jaylloyd gna go japan this saturday! my stuffssssssss, dont forget! lol.

i'm so full from my mom's cooking. i bet kaye and wanqi are too.

anw, allow me to digress. its good to have you away, it kinda sucks to see stuffs concerning you. but its better this way, i guess. afterall, what much can i expect from a guy like you ?

now i know, you like to play.

2009-03-10T09:56:00.000-07:00

Chen made a comment about your note "do it, ____ :)

": "Dear SAMANTHA,I KIT TEUNG you.
You have a nice BF =D.
You make me WORK LIKE UR MAID!.
You should NOT ASK ME TO FILL THIS UP.
Someday I will COOK HOR FUN FOR U.
You + me = OK BUDDIES.
If I saw you now I'd POKE YOU.
I want to BEAR HUG you.
I would build a BIGGGGGGG SOFT BED just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be XIAO FEI JI! (LITTLE AEROPLANE).
We could PLAY DRINKING GOGGLES under the stars.

Love,BOYFRIEND/OK BUDDY

(P.S. THANKS FOR BROWNIE, DEAR!.)

Oh and I am not going (CONFIRM) to post this under my notes and see what you write about me."

:D love you baby!

2009-03-08T11:21:00.000-07:00

10.20pm or so, i was on the bus with kaye at. we talked about you.. pretty much the journey was spent on you. the words you said, the stuffs you did, how you looked, what you did. i drew the line at discussing with her about your habits.. like how you only text in lower caps. moments of silence were broken by me singing " wang ji ni, man man wang ji ni.. ".

i thot i knew better, i thot i was in total control of my own emotions but it seems like i thot wrong. sooner than later, you got me thinking. you took over my mind, my thoughts.

more than 3 hours later, 2:34am, i've decided..

i've decided to stop questioning, wondering, analysing..
i've decided to accept/leave things as they are..
i've decided to stop all these thoughts from flowing..
i've decided to break this habit, you.

even if it means not hearing your voice, not having updates about you. even if it means losing someone like you. even if it means i'm running away. i've decided.

i put in too much of myself, its time to stop. you're right.. you're god damn right, we cant be doing anything.

takecare.
thankyou & goodbye...

2009-03-08T08:48:00.000-07:00

yay, we finally have a great story to work on. its gna be a hell of a week. today, sunday.. has been nice. bf cooked fried rice for me after knowing that i've not had home cooked food for the longest time. :D

went to the airport with kaye and wanqi. pretty productive and fun. hahaha. i'll post the pictures after i got them from wanqi. :D

i dont wna make this post abt you again, so.. i'll just gna let it be.

alright, back to hana yori dango.

2009-03-07T11:21:00.001-08:00

maybe, perhaps, it seems like we're running about in circles.. even so, a circle has gotta have an end..

no ?

perhaps, i'm my own end. i need to start stopping finding reasons to let go.

just say for now we wont be doing anything. we cant be doing anything. all these is left a step at a time.
it seems like we are running away. but that how things are can be done right now.

the next time, it wont be about you anymore.

2009-03-06T11:39:00.000-08:00

one day.. one fine day, we'll know, wont we ? till den..

argh, actuallyihavetonsofthingstopendownbutsuddenlyi'mlostforwords...ihatethisfeeling.

2009-03-05T10:57:00.000-08:00

kaye is the greatest neighbour!

i dont think i've said this before but i'm gna say it now.
for the times that you gladly took the trouble to shower/change, walk out of the house, took the lift down and accompany me to get food, for the time that you walked to 7-11 in the middle of the night with me, for the times that you get high over my nonsense, for the tutu kueh hunting session, for the first ever session at rebel and zouk and for the many wonderful memories... thank you. thank you, kaye. my wonderful wonderful neighbour!

hahaha. cheers to many more memories and to our meeting at 3pm (LOL.)

xoxo. lub you deep deep!

2009-03-03T10:58:00.000-08:00

for all tears that i couldnt bring myself to let flow, hana yori dango made it much easier for me.

:D

i guess i can finally say, its cool, i'm alright. cheers!

2009-03-02T08:15:00.000-08:00

yep, thats me and dallas at some balinese restaurant in cannery. nothing fanstastic. saturday has been fun with e lazing, high-ness and damn comfy bed. sunday was interesting and tiring, left merchant court at ard 6.45AM.. went to NUS with zh. that poor boy waited 4hours for my workshop to end, met someone new at the workshop from SAJC whose number i;ve forgotten. JC guys.. too young. damn. cab home, showered, K.Oed, poor bf had to cooked pasta for lunch.. eat it alone while i'm slping. woke up to take 3 mouth full only to fell back aslp. bf heat up the remaining before kissing me goodbye and throwing in my hse key. ahhhh. love.

got a call from mom to run an errand, went with roy, met up with augy at haji lane. spent moolahs on manicure and pedicure, roy went for massage, augy went for waxing. sunday was as tiring as fun.

woke up with monday's greeting, lunch with bf, bumped into sharon and kaye. hang around awhile, annoyed them. hahaha. met mano in town, talked alot, shopped abit. train to dhoby ghaut to meet norman, went to vivo to meet ben, xs and cynthia. went on quite afew rounds, many U-turns before ben got the place. watson's wake, hope you're happy wherever you are now, my friend. dinner at tiong bahru.. laughed alot.. had fun.

back home, facing the comp doing drafts after drafts. its been 80 hours or so.. yet you're still running in my mind. aint you tired ?

i am.

2009-02-27T21:32:00.000-08:00

21 days to break a habit.

till den. cheers to a great saturday ppl!

2009-02-27T19:36:00.000-08:00

gd morning ppl, its 11:37.. just got up. yawns.

did a quiz.. and i'm only gna post up abit of e evaluation.

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

my true self... hmm.. lol.

2009-02-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

can play with fire, but dont get burnt. kaye told me.

thanks love.

2009-02-25T09:31:00.000-08:00

i met munis, jon, dallas, tiff, tammy, augy, kaye.. all in one day. has been quite an eventful day, i dont even know where to begin.

kinda confused abt certain things right now.

k.. bye. i dont know where to being or end.

oh, btw.. i love how i managed to capture e moon on an afternoon. an afternoon in phuket... hmmm.